So why am I blogging at all? Isn't my life full to the last second?
Well, it is full, that's true. Full of working, driving, cooking, cleaning etc. But every once in a while I want ten minutes to do something creative. And, unfortunately, I am not a creative person. Old school friends still laugh at my attempts to use a sewing machine in textiles class 22 years ago. I was the only student that the teacher gave up with and was made to sit on a separate table to hand sew (badly) a simple patchwork design. The steam of frustration visibly seen from Mrs Boston's ears, are still as clear to me today as it was then.
So no sewing machines. Which is a shame as I would love to. But maybe not the best option for everyone's sanity in our house.
I have always loved writing. Poems as a teenager and then a 50,000 word novella 8 years ago. Mind you, there is a huge difference between loving something and being good at it. As I found out when I started writing classes last year. Reading back those attempts were cringeworthy but I did learn a lot about how to improve and have vowed that one day, I will complete a novel. With maternity leave only four months away, I am hoping that day may be sooner rather than later. As long as I can juggle a newborn, toddler, house, older children and writing. Yes - no problem!
So why else am I writing this, apart from to be creative?
Well, two other reasons. The first one is that I would love a record of this pregnancy, as it is my last, and I am not very good at writing a diary by hand every night. I sort of collapse in bed with a good book at the end of the day and am asleep in minutes. Sorry if you are an insomniac but I don't suffer that way. My tip - live my life for a week and you will sleep without a problem. On the other hand, there may be a problem waking up!
So a record of my fifth pregnancy and a creative outpouring. But the other reason is that I do get a lot of people - mostly women, it has to be said - that say "I don't know how you do it and stay sane". So for all of those women out there, I am hoping that this will provide an insight into how to juggle several balls at once and yet keep smiling. I am far from perfect and don't know all of the answers but I do manage. In fact, I don't manage life, I enjoy it. You only get one so there is no point stressing and worrying. Better to get up and do.
Maybe more tomorrow or later....